Almost tried to change myself for someone.. well ain't that great. :| But the good thing is i snapped out of it. Got my head out of my ass and realized that i was becoming something i'm not. almost pulled a highschool there. semi-retarded me. jeez. anyhoo, as much as I want to pursue, I can sense that i'm not wanted, otherwise, i would have been informed. Also, i'm confident in the fact that i'm a pretty decent MAN. When it comes relationships. I was never a boy. I know what I want, but through the years I have learned that no matter how hard you try, if the other person doesn't really want you in his life, you'll either end up as a fallback and the obvious, you won't be in his life. So tonight, while with my friends, I fell into deep thought..an epiphany even. I don't need to be someone else. I will not be loved for something/someone i'm not. I know someone out there will find this sarcastic-chill-hopeless-romantic-lotr-hp geek interesting. haha and i hope to find that one interesting as well. that's all for tonight. I pray that life be kind in this aspect of my life.
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how can something so simple be realized so late. lol better late than 30. hehe
i seriously liked this post. i agree with you, you need not to be someone else you are not just to be accepted more so just to be loved.
ReplyDeletei see that you are an intellectual MAN/guy at your age (in college right?), keep it up! and i am with you in hoping that you find someone who will love you for who and what you are.
a similar thought just came across while am typing, something like "change for yourself and not for someone else"
kudos!